I’m tired. So horrendously tired of this stupid brain of mine.

It won’t shut up. I’ve tried everything, yet it still goes on and on every single day, every single night.

It tells me everything that I already know. I’m a failure. I’m a disappointment. Everyone hates me. I need to die. I know. Thank you for reminding me for the 50th time today.

It lets me know about the smallest changes in people’s behavior. It screams at me to make sure I know that they hate me.

It makes sure I know of every worst case scenario. It stresses me out about everything. From something as small as getting a gacha character to my maths exam, it stresses me out all the same.

It reminds me of my biggest fears and let’s me know that they’re all coming true. Everyone will leave me and I’ll be all alone. I know.

I can’t sleep. I try so hard. But these thoughts won’t stop. I just wish they’d stop.

Everyday feels like a constant battle. Not against the world or the people around me, but a battle against my own mind.

I don’t think I can win.

My mind has consumed me.

It has ruined me.

I’m so tired.